Saturday, April 19, 2008

another poem about how ppl dont like flowers when they lose their color. its acutally kinda stupid but watevr

Lovely colors,
So they say,
See them bloom?
Now fade away,
And as they do,
We all look the other way,
Turn our backs just because,
The colors aren’t happy as the day,
Still the same flower,
Still the same ray,
Yet somehow no one likes the blossom,
Because the ‘pretty’ colors, once there, have been replaced with shades of gray,
So as the flower wilts and dies,
Some of them will shut their eyes,
But not I,
and perhaps not you?
For we both know just what we knew.

i just wrote another poem it's called 'secrets seep through pores'. the rhymings a bit off but i still like it

Tears of the heart,
That tear through the soul,
Taunt us as we come apart,
Hold on tight and don’t let go,
Living secret lives as though,
I haven’t cried,
As though,,
I haven’t died,
As though,
I still feel the part;
Happy, go lucky girl,
As though,
The words you’ve spoken aren’t,
Cruel and undecided,
Uncaring and one-sided,
As though,
Our smiles are still supported,
Still loved and not distorted,
By pictures of perfection,
In no way masked by deception,
But they are,
And so we do,
And I cry when I think of you,
And what you think I don’t know,
So keep doing as is done,
And I’ll pretend it was as though,
the dying will go on,
Through many many layers,
Filled of love, hate and slayers,
Slayers of me, and you,
And what we thought we were meant to do.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

St. Patricks Day!


Happy St. patricks Day!!!! ( plz notice I'm using green)
A celebration of all that is green (and drunk...... Or both!!)

Saturday, March 15, 2008

OMG! ecoSNEAKS

ok so i was looking through bazaar and i saw this sneakers made from RECYCLED car/bike tires, hemp and other RECYCLED stuff. they're SO cool.

check it out:

http://www.simpleshoes.com/ProductDetails.aspx?g=Women&categoryID=357&productID=9245&model=Satire-Polka+

Monday, March 10, 2008

regarding last post.....

you hav 2 click on the little x's and they take u 2 the photos. sorry!

Penelope




So i wet to see penelope today. It was really good. But the best part was definatley all penelope's clothes. God! They were so cool. i could'nt find that many good pictures of them on the internet (which was dissapointing) but i found 2 ok-ish ones so here you go!

Friday, March 7, 2008

revised version of a poem.....

Feet on the piano, Heart on my sleeve,
I never meant for you to see what I breathe,
Dark and alone, red drops fall,
I only wish you knew it all,
The intensity, they hate, I crave
They call it pain, They don’t know about my game
They all smile and wave hello
If only they’d look deeper though
They could feel my lust,
How everything I want is now a must,
So I simply sit and try,
Try to pretend I don’t want to die,
So I now will tell,
All about my hell,
And my secret life,
All about my best friend; knife,
A secret I will now reveal,
I’ve done some things that will never heal,
If you lift up my shirt you’d see
All the things I do to me
All alone I see a black bird cry
Help me! Help me! I may die.

(I changed the middle a little..)

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

a play in progress....

the title (as sane as i am) is supposed to sound like insane asylum..... it's kina a joke-ish thing but it's about this guy (man) who is in love with a girl (caylin) but she's insane. there's also a nurse (Aria) who's in love w/ man but (again) man's in love w/ caylin.


As Sane as I am
Scene 1
Act 1
Curtains part, scene opens: Man walks down hall, kind of like apartment building,
Man: Hey Caylin! (looks through window in door)
Caylin: Hi! I’m so glad you’re here!! (sounds a little worried, not too much)
Man: why?
Caylin: I was drinking a glass of apple Juice and my aunt Jilly came out and said “I threw the pudding in the lake!” then the glass overflowed and I almost drowned, but now you’re here and you’ve got to help me! (gets more frazzled as she talks)
Man: Woah! Woah! Calm down!
Caylin: But it’s-
Man: give me your hand! (opens door)
Caylin: (slowly gives hand)
Man: (takes hand) Do you feel water?
Caylin: a-a-aa-apple j-ju-juice (stutters)
Man: Please, (strokes hand) I only feel air.
Caylin: *Whimpers*
Man: Take a deep breath.
Caylin: (breathes)
Man: How do you feel
Caylin: (chokes)
Man: (thrashes open door, rushes through the hall, holding Caylin)
End scene
Scene 2
Act 1
Curtains part, in kitchen like place, man and Caylin rush in
Man: Aria!
Aria: what-
Man: get her meds!
Caylin: (continues to choke)
Aria: (opens cabinet, gets little orange container, takes out two small pills, light blue hands them to man)
Man: (puts in Caylin’s mouth)
Caylin; (seems to fall asleep)
Man: (sigh,sets Caylin on bed, sits down)
Aria: She’ll be fine
Man: I know…. It’s just….. Well…. I mean, what if next time she’s not?
Aria: We can only do so much, we just have to try the hardest we can.
Man: I tried to calm her down… without the pills, before I came here
Aria: No! You know you can’t do that!
Man: But I was so cl-
Aria: (gives evil eye)
Man: I know she’ll come around!
Aria: (sits down next to man) You know that when her parents placed her here they said to just keep her on medication. That means no experimental cures!
Man: but it’s not experimental! It’s worked before
Aria: You know it hasn’t been certified, and that means it’s still experimental (reaches out to grab hand, begins to stroke)
Man: (pulls away) I have to go finish my rounds (walks off)
Aria: (looks longingly)
End scene
Scene 3
Act 1
Curtains part, in a small room, one bed, one window, door with a window
Man: (looks sad, sighs)
Man: (sings sad song about how he loves Caylin but cant have her and how one day he will)
“ C is for Caylin
A is for anyone
Y is for yoodle
L is for … love?
I is for Intwined
N is for never
Never….. ever…. again”
(never and ever long again short)
Aria; Man? Man?? We have to get them ready for lunch!
Man: (sighs, looks up closes eyes, goes back to normal, stands to go, starts walking)
Curtains close…

my new-ish story!!!!

Somebodies, Nobodies, and Anybodies
A novel of twisted fates which is, in fact, written by a person who’s name just happens to begin with an O, followed by an L, which is obviously just before the very first I, then the very important middle letter which is conveniently located in the middle of the name the one and only… V, and along comes the second I, but of course all of this is leading up to the final letter which is, by no question, an……… A!!!!!

“Tic?” said one
“Tac?” said the other
“Tic, tic?” said the first
“Tac, tac?” said the second
Suddenly the girl broke into a wide grin, that was just a tad bit scary, and sang, rather loudly; “Tic, tic, tic?”
The boy’s face burst into a smile and then he chimed in with a “Tac, tac, tac”
Then they both began to sing; “Tic”
“Tacs”
“Tic”
“Tacs”
“Yummy tummy”
“Tic”
“Tacs”
“If your breath smells like rabbit doo”
“Or squirrel poo”
“Go out and buy”
“Some refreshing…”
“Tic”
“Tacs”
“They’ll help you get”
“That non-poo-like smell back!”
The two the held up their thumbs, grinned their widest grins, and opened their eyes WAY too wide. The girls left looked like it was beginning to twitch, but one couldn’t be sure………..
It didn’t make sense, why those 2? What was so special about them? Why should they be put on television, to be adored by millions, why were they so important? It didn’t make any sense to me. But wither or not the lives of 2 kids made sense to me was not important, not now anyway. So, as the thoughts of the boy and girl fluttered out of my mind, a new thought inserted itself in my brain; getting to school on time. I had been late all week long and if I was late today I’d not only get yelled at by my parents, I’d get detention, and as much as I’d love to sit at a desk with my head down for an hour I have many more important things to do…. Well, maybe not more important, but more fun, definitely more fun.
Many other people, though, had nothing more important to do than what they were supposed to be doing. Take Ace for example, he was in the process of filming his next commercial with his cute, but of course no where near as cute as him, twin sister; Aria.
Ever since his first words Ace has known he was destined to be a star, and he made sure everyone else knew too. He was so concerned with himself he would often put himself above all others. For example at the boy’s 4th birthday (which would be his twin sister, Aria’s too) and when it came time for cake he and his sister were sitting at the end of the table while all the lovey little guests in their lovely little party outfits sang happy birthday. Unfortunatley Ace had a very short attention span, was very greedy, and very selfish. So, being the selfish 4 year old boy that he was he decided that he did not deserve to wait for what he wanted so before the guests could get to the second verse of ‘happy birthday’ Ace jumped onto the cake, fell to his knees, and pigged out. All the party guests sat in shock at the savage young boy scarfed down handful-after-handful of cake. But more than that, these snoob-ish guests, sat in agony over their $1,000 suits and dresses that were now covered in an equally expensive cake that was not only on everyone’s clothes, but also in the stomach of one delighted young boy. After 5 minutes of nothing but the sound of cake being devoured, and the occasional whisper of the appauled house guests, it stopped. Ace rose from his death stance on the sugary pastry, and stood up. His mother quitley asked “Why?”
Ace replied “because you aren’t as important as me and I was afraid I wouldn’t get as much cake as I wanted if I shared with suck-ish people like you.”
Now most parents would be deeply disappointed to hear their son voice these words at such a young age, most parents would hurriedly take their son to a center full of other Strange minded children destined to grow up to become strange minded adults. And, of course, as the meetings progress the parents will be delighted as they continue to deceive themselves into thinking that the meeting are working and that soon their strange minded child will be transferred into a heavenly angel sent from god. But, of course, this will not be the case, the young boy will only continue to grow, and as he does so will his vast array of how many ways he is so much better than everyone else in the world, and he will continue to make sure everyone knows each and every one of them. He will have a good life, but soon he will fall into a deep depression of longing for the accepting parents he never had. Then he will withdraw all together from everyone. For years he will live in his room, alone, playing with his imaginary parents, Doug and Sally. Doug is a professional nose blower with green feet, and Sally who works as a secretary to a very nice lady named Mrs. Bubble who killed her husband, but oddly enough they still have sex, Mrs. Bubble has said it’s very dry though. But then after exactly 1 year, 8 months, 2 weeks, 5 days, 13 hours, 53 minutes, and 47 seconds the young man cracks, he jumps out his bedroom window and screams “Aunt Periwinkle is going to eat a potato in a sea of shoelaces!!” And to reward his leap of faith this young man is given a one-way ticket to the Happy Hippo insane asylum so he can scream about waffles covered in kool-aid without disturbing the oh-so scheduled lives of the normal. But that, my friends, is not how the story goes. Ace’s parents did not send him to a how-not-to-be-a-strange-minded-child meeting instead they drove him to an acting specialist, where the teachers were delighted at Ace’s natural interest in the world of Celebrity. But Ace was not the only one sent to this specialist, Aria was sent along too. Why? Well, the answer is simple. She had to. Both parents were off to work, they couldn’t leave Aria at home, no matter how bad of parents they were they would never leave a 4 year old child alone, The children were also notoriously bad behaved so it was next to impossible to get a baby sitter, and this specialist was a get-out-of-jail-free card. For the parents it was, but for Aria it was a get-in-jail-free card. Aria hated that class. But when has what she thought ever mattered?
The hall at the entrance to the school was long and unforgiving. It was littered with lost and miserable freshmen, sophomores trying to make the freshmen as miserable as they were their first year at high school, juniors trying to make the sophomores as miserable as they were their second year at high school, And seniors terrorizing anybody with two feet for the fun of it. It was a difficult path but I had traveled it before and besides the occasional name calling nothing horrible had happened yet. I took a deep breath in and began the journey to math. I swerved through the crowd and aside from the few random calls of ‘faggot’ or ‘fairy’ had a very easy time of it.
i don't rlly no wat happens next but i rlly like this story and i dont want to ruin, u no?

my favorite poem that I wrote....

So i just sent the poem to myself (from school) and i downloaded it on to my computer and here it is:

Feet on the piano, Heart on my sleeve
I never meant for you to see what I breathe,
Dark and alone, red drops fall
I only wish you knew it all
The intensity, they hate, I crave
They call it pain, They don’t know about my game
They all smile and wave hello
If only they’d look deeper though
But what they don’t seem to realize,
I can see deeper, through their eyes
If you lift up my shirt you’d see
All the things I do to me
All alone a black bird cries
Help me! Help me! I may die.

snow day!


it is a................................... Snow day!! Yes! but bot just that it's also wednesday which means i'm missing Math!!!!! and not just one block...... 2! AND I'm missing spanish AND orchestra!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!! i think the approiate song for this occasion is a little tune that goes "Sleigh bells ring, are you listening, In the lane, snow is glisteningA beautiful sight,We're happy tonight.Walking in a winter wonderland........."
HAPPY SNOW DAY!

Friday, February 22, 2008

ok so the last time i did this post something weird happened..... so im doing it w/out the colors bolds etc....

So i worked on this report for humanities for 4 hours! last night ( i worked a little bit b4 that, maybe an hour or so...) and i was REALLY proud of it. So i saved it and quit out but i waned to check 2 make sure it saved so i clicked on it and it comes up like it was BEFORE i worked on it for 4 hours and i FREAKED out cause i worked on it for 4 hours!!!! but then i remembered my frnd said there was a recover option so i figured out how to get it back. Then i went to turn it in to my teacher and she says " oh... okay i'll just-" and walks away... WTF????!?!?!?!?!!??!!??!?! she didn't even say it in an excited voice!!! she said it in an i-dont-care voice!!!! GRR.....

another poem that ok.....

Give it up
There’s nothing left to give
Give your soul
I sold it………….. to the devil
Give your heart
I gave it to the man I loved but he tore it to pieces
Give your emotion
It’s too late, they’re already gone
Give your warmth
My body is cold as ice
Give your life
I already took it….

info about my poem

that was NOT by best poem but it was ok. my best ones are on a different computer but i'll send them 2 myself L8er and put them on.

A poem by moi!!!

No one save me.
I’m not coming home.
Life is too hard,
No one will remember me when I’m dead and gone
So while you all smile your dreadful smiles,
I refuse to do so anymore,
And in so I feel more free than I ever have,
So yes I am free but is anyone free with me?
Lonley and free…..
Terrified and released
I live in your mind For no longer.
You can’t smile at me to make me feel better,
You can’t hold me close and pretend to care,
You can’t shower me in gifts that mean nothing,
I’m doing fine without you,
I’m not coming home,
No one save me.

Friday, February 8, 2008

Converse (the update)

So i went into TJ maxx today and I saw THE coolest canverse evr!!! there was this one that had blue (that's rught BLUE) sheep (you know, the things that say bah) all over it and then one green one on the heel (off to the side) they were AWESOME!!!! Then there was this other pair that was white w/ black polka dots that got smaller and darker as you moved twoard the heel of the shoe. they were NOT off brands AND (you know that word that means MULTIPLE good things (or bad things i guess but in this case good things) they were only 20$.

And now im done. <3

converse


Converse are the anwser to all of life's questions. they're perfect in every way. If you dont think so u obvisouly suck (and not in the good way...tee hee hee). theyre made to funk w/ and destroy. they're best when theyre at least 2 yrs old and stink and r all torn up. its just their nature.